In Christ Alone: My Journey through Breast Cancer

a 37-year old, christian, mother of four, missionary/pastor's wife's story

Incomprehensible, Overwhelming Peace, Joy, & Love December 1, 2016

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“Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” ‭‭(Psalm‬ ‭139:16‬)

Words can’t describe what it is like to be touched by so many precious souls in this life. Your outpouring of love & support is truly beyond comprehension to us! Just when we think God couldn’t possibly show His love, peace, joy, and comfort any more, He does. Through each of you.

We have thoroughly enjoyed reading all the stories and comments of you in our lives! I have been beyond blessed with a life full of such amazing people! I am so thankful to God for bringing each of you into my life. He truly has a plan and a purpose for every detail of our lives. Thank you to each of you for once again taking the time to be a blessing to me in this time. You have brought me more peace, joy, and love than I ever thought possible. My heart overflows with love for you all!

 

The Time to Part Ways has Come Now: Hospice Care November 29, 2016

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“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” (Philippians 4:13)

This is the hardest decision we have had to make on this cancer journey. When do we part ways for now? What is God’s will for us right now? There are so many factors that have converged at this point for Eric and I, our precious family and way beyond us. If you are reading this, we are all in this journey together in some way. So this decision will affect so many of you precious, dear friends in some profoundly significant ways too.

We have made the choice for me to begin hospice care at this time. God has once again given His peace that passes all understanding in this decision for us. My quality of life in the time I have left is more important to our family than the length of time I have left. We want to enjoy beautiful times together with family and friends!

What exactly does this mean? I will discontinue my chemotherapy and further brain radiation treatments going forward. These treatments are currently significantly deteriorating my quality of life. My care will change to making my time most beneficial and focusing on the best possible quality time with my family and friends in the time I do have left. A hospice nurse will now visit our home once a week to make sure we have everything we need.

It is fitting that God brought me to the truths of the book of Philippians to begin this cancer journey almost 6 years ago, and I can still hold to those promises and encouragements today! God’s Words are always true and never-changing! The words of Philippians 4:13, “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength,” applies just as much to me today as when I claimed them as my life verse in college, as when I claimed them for my cancer journey, as when Paul wrote the words to the New Testament believers in Philippi!

Love for You All
And God gave me all of you to go on this journey with me, to love and support me and my family all along the way. I have told you before, but what Philippians 1 says about you I still claim and pray for you with all my heart:
“I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart and, whether I am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you share in Godʼs grace with me. God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus. And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.” (Philippians‬ ‭1:3-11‬)
We love you all, with all our hearts!

Parting for Now
So we reach the time to part ways for a little while. We can all rejoice in the hope we have through our faith in Christ though! Paul goes on in Philippians 1 to remind us of this precious hope we can cling to in this time:
“And because of this I rejoice. Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and Godʼs provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” (‭‭Philippians‬ ‭1:18-21‬)

How is dying gain, you may ask? Leaving all of you is the hardest thing I will have to do. But I will be face to face with my precious Savior at last! I will have gained heaven and my perfect, eternal life with Jesus forever and ever. I just get to go there a little sooner than all of you.🙂

I have to say once again: if you have not accepted Jesus as your own Savior, please don’t put off this decision another second! A-admit that you are a sinner and need Jesus to save you from your sins. B-believe Jesus loves you and died on the cross for your sins. And C-call out to God today to save you! If you do this, you can know for sure you will be with Jesus in heaven when you die! You too can claim this promise from Philippians 1:21, “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.”

Thank you all for your continued prayers, love, and support on this journey. We can’t thank you enough for all you do for us from near and far!

 

More Not Good News November 17, 2016

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We once again covet your prayers that we can continue to cast our burdens on the Lord. We look to Him to sustain us. (If your remember from my last update, sustain means to comfort, help, assist, encourage, succor, support, give strength to, buoy up, carry, cheer up, hearten.)

Today was my Gamma Knife procedure to treat my brain lesions. I had a high resolution brain MRI this morning for the neurosurgeon and radiation oncologist to use to plan my treatment. They were expecting 3-4 spots to treat from looking at my previous MRI 2 weeks ago. But today they found 18 spots! While we were shocked by this news, we take great comfort knowing that God was not surprised today. 

They went ahead and treated the 7 biggest spots in a nearly 2 hour procedure today. We will have to regroup and talk through the options to treat the remaining spots. Pray my doctors will have wisdom as they discuss further treatment options and for wisdom for us as we seek the Lord’s will for the next step.

In the mean time, I will continue with the plan and start my new chemo on Tuesday. Pray that this will be effective against the other cancer in my lungs, liver, and bones without causing severe side effects for me. I am already extremely fatigued from my previous treatments.

Thank you again for all your prayers and support! They truly sustain us during this difficult journey.

“Cast your burden upon the LORD, and He shall sustain thee” (Psalm 55:22)

 

Next Steps: Surgery, Gamma Knife, & Chemo November 10, 2016

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“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.” (Psalm‬ ‭55:22‬)

I am so thankful for this promise from the Lord. We can cast our cares on Him and He will sustain us! Curious as to the exact definition of sustain, I looked in the dictionary and found these synonyms: comfort, help, assist, encourage, succor, support, give strength to, buoy up, carry, cheer up, hearten. Wow! What a list! I am so thankful that God is the one who is sustaining me through this cancer journey. Thank you all who are praying for the Lord to sustain us right now! Your prayers mean so much to us!

We now have the schedule laid out before us of the next steps in our journey. We wanted to share them with you so you can be in prayer each step of the way.

First, tomorrow morning I go in to have a Pleurex Catheter surgically placed to drain fluid off my left lung. I already have one on the right side, so now I get a matching set! I had to go off of my blood thinners to have this surgery, so pray I don’t develop any clots during this time. My surgeon thinks he can do the surgery without completely putting me under, so I will hopefully be able to go home the same day and NOT have to spend the night in the hospital.

Secondly, next Thursday, I am scheduled to have another Gamma Knife procedure to kill the new cancer lesion that has shown up in my brain. We caught this one much earlier this time, so it is much smaller than the 2 tumors I had back in May. The neurosurgeon saw 2-3 more additional “suspicious” spots in my brain as well. So Thursday morning they will do a high-resolution MRI and make their plan of attack from those images. If you remember from my previous Gamma Knife, 192 beams of radiation are set to converge at the point where the cancer lesion is in my brain. This ensures the radiation is only effective on the cancer lesion and NOT the rest of my brain. They can then reposition the machine to target the next spot. So they can zap all the spots they find on Thursday!

Thirdly, I am scheduled to start my new chemo, Abraxane, the following Tuesday. This will be the week of Thanksgiving. So I will be laying low that week to see what the side effects of this new chemo will be for me.

Thank you again for your prayers as we continue on this cancer journey and trust in the Lord to sustain us through whatever comes into our path. Don’t forget to take your cares to the Lord, too, and trust Him to sustain you!

“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.” (Psalm‬ ‭55:22‬)

 

Cancer Spreading November 3, 2016

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“I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber.” (Psalm 121:1-3)

Once again, we thank you all for continuing on this cancer journey with us and covet your continued prayers as we embark on the next steps.

I had scans again after the third round of my new chemo and received the results this week. The good news first: the two tumors that were Gamma Knifed back in May continue to shrink, the spots in my lungs show marked improvement, and the fluid output from my right lung continues to decrease.

The rest is not good news. There is fluid increase in my left lung and a drain is going to be put in, so I then will have a drain on both sides. A new lesion has shown up in my brain. We will meet with a neurosurgeon next Wednesday to schedule another Gamma Knife procedure as soon as possible. New cancer spots have also shown up on my spine, liver, and both hip bones. Two spots in each of those. So while my current chemo has seemed to work well in my lungs, the cancer has continued to spread in other areas. This means we have to switch my chemo again already. There are fewer than few options they have because I have had so many different chemos already.

I love and whole-heartedly agree with the words my wonderful husband Eric wrote concerning our current situation:

“We don’t know what tomorrow holds, but we have hope in tomorrow because of our great God who loves us, has saved us despite our sin, and who promises to never leave or forsake us. To leave this life is to be present with our Creator and our King.

No matter the news, God IS Good!”

I am so thankful I have trusted Christ as my Savior and know I will go to heaven when I leave this life! This promise of eternal life with my Lord and Savior gives me hope for tomorrow! Do you have that absolute assurance today? If not, don’t put off making the decision to trust Christ as your Savior today.

“I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, he who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore.” (Psalms‬ ‭121:1-8‬ ‭ESV‬‬)

 

Help Comes When Needed September 22, 2016

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“I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.” (Psalm 121:1-2)

Thank you for continuing to follow us on our cancer journey. We are so thankful for each of your prayers and support as we continue to settle in here in Ohio as a family and with our medical team. We have loved our community and schools so far. The kids are making friends and like the schools here. They still miss their friends back in Nebraska and have enjoyed receiving cards and letters and communicating through technology. Our church family and BCP family continue to support us in many ways. My mom was able to come out this week to help out around the house and stay with me so Eric can begin working more regular hours in the office. He has his office all set up now and is excited to start on many projects that will help with church planting across the United States!

Medical Update

Chemo Round #2 was yesterday. We spent most of the day seeing the doctor and then receiving my chemo treatment. The side effects should be hitting me in the next day or two, so I really covet your prayers for that time. Knowing what side effects I had last time helps us be more prepared this time. Also, I’m not just coming out of surgery and a hospital stay this time, so hopefully my body can tolerate the chemo better this time.

The oncologist told us we will do scans after my 3rd round to see how the chemo is fighting the cancer. The spots on my back and on my chest that we can feel have stopped growing! So we are praying the cancer in my lungs is also responding.

I am able to breath much better since my procedure to put the window from my heart to my lung and the Pleurex catheter from my right lung to drain the fluid out. We are still draining 300-400mL of fluid off every other day from the drain. The doctor says I need to drink plenty of fluids to make sure I don’t become dehydrated. I do still struggle with my breathing any time I do any activity. I have to turn up my oxygen. At rest I do very well! I used to have trouble keeping my oxygen saturation levels up just sitting, so I am progressing.🙂

Thank you again for all your continued prayers and support. We love receiving messages, texts, cards, and calls letting us know you are lifting us up to our amazing Lord and Savior through this time of trial. He continues to provide the help and strength we need each day!

“I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.” (Psalm 121:1-2)

 

A Go for Chemo September 9, 2016

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When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. — Psalm 34:17   

Medical Update

Thursday, August 18th, I went in for my pre-op tests: an EKG, a CT Scan, and an ECHO of my heart. I was having a very difficult time breathing and talking would end up with a lot of coughing. After these tests I met with my surgeon. The technician that did the ECHO called my surgeon to let him know what he saw right away. There was so much fluid around my heart they wanted me admitted to the hospital to drain it right away. It couldn’t wait until the morning. So we went through the ER to admit me and get me into a procedure room to drain that fluid. The next morning, I went into surgery to put a window from my heart to my lung to continue draining that fluid. Then they put a Pleurex catheter in to drain the fluid from my lung. I ended up staying in the hospital until Tuesday to make sure all was going well with using the catheter to drain the fluid. Eric then took over as my nurse at home, draining my catheter and making sure I took all my meds on time. A home health nurse also comes 1-2x per week to check me over and make sure we have everything we need.

With all the roadblocks taken care of, on Wednesday, August 31st, I finally received my first  3-week dose of the chemo Ixempra. It has hit me hard and I have been pretty well down with major chemo fatigue and multiple side effects for the past week. We are praying that it is hitting the cancer hard too and fighting it back! Thank you for all your prayers! I don’t know how I would’ve made it without them.

My next chemo treatment will be September 21st.  

Many Blessings

While the medical side of things has kept us very busy, we have been so thankful for our wonderful First Baptist Church of Brunswick family and Baptist Church Planters family coming around us here to be God’s hands and feet to us. They have provided delicious meals and food, watched the kids while we go to appointments, cleaned the house, done laundry, mowed the yard, and more. As the apostle Paul, we can say we are thankful upon every remembrance of you!

Also, Eric’s three sisters made the road trip out here from Iowa for Labor Day weekend. They definitely labored around our house to make it feel more like home for us. They organized the kids’ bedrooms, unpacked more boxes, hung wall decor and curtains, and made over 30 freezer meals for us! (Friends out here provided us with a freezer to put all those meals into as well!) What a blessing! Thanks to them and all the other family and friends that contributed to the food and projects around the house. We are once again overwhelmed by your love and support in our time of need!

Thank you again for your continued prayers! They truly sustain us through the hard times. I am so thankful the Lord hears and answers our cries for help.

“When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.” — Psalm 34:17